_my love for you;

I just wanna scream and lose myself..

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

I used to diss people who always emo on their blogs, for I think it is so dumb la. Imagine this scenario:

"I'm so ugly and fat. My friends and family think so too. I've got no boyfriend. Nobody loves me. I hate everyone. I should just slash my wrist and die."
-I would go ahead and say, "Go ahead". *Rolls eyes*

But I am getting so depressed these few days and I couldn't help it. I think those who read blog can't bear me anymore. :(

It's just dumb, sad entries with lots of vulgar words to express my anger at that point of time. Yeah, totally boring.

I want all my entries to be happy *inserts fake smile here* but I feel so lethargic to write new entries too. I rather blog-hop and read some strangers' blogs than to write an entry.

But well, things just weren't going smooth for me. I wonder why? Why is it that other people's lives seem so much better than mine? Sigh, I guess that's why they say the grass is always greener on the other side. We envy people not knowing that others envy us too.

I have to keep in mind that - Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want, doesn't mean that he doesn't love you with all he has got. Whenever I read this, it gives me the comfort that I want.

On another note, I skipped work today. Weren't feeling too good. Don't ask me why. You guys don't really want to read those lame dramas in my life, do ya? haha.

Yesterday, I was a miserable, poor bitch but today, I felt better. It's like after crying your way to sleep, you wake up and forgot about everything. Feels much more forgiving too. But darn, the swollen eyes. And also, staying at home means a loss of income. I feel so bah-ed.

PMS? Maybe. I wonder why I've been feeling this way for this entire week. Makes me feel like god is punishing me due to the goodness I had experienced for the past few months aka not working days.

Let me hear you say hey hey hey
Alright, now let me hear you say hey hey
hoI hate it when a guy doesn't get the door
Even though I told him yesterday
and the day before
I hate it when a guy doesn't get the tab
And I have to pull my money out and that looks bad

Where are the hopes,
where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see

That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same
And yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble but I'm a hell of a scandal
Me I'm a scene
I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen

Alright Alright yeah
I hate it when a guy doesn't understand
Why a certain time of month I don't want to hold his hand
I hate it when they go out and we stay in
And they come home smelling like their ex-girlfriend

But I found my hopes I found my dreams
My Cinderella story scene
Now everybody's gonna see
That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same
And yeah yeah yeah
I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble but I'm a hell of a scandal
Me I'm a scene
I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever

-By Avril Lavigne

-Sign Off @ 10:55 PM :)