(Chuanting and Dixon not present though... and I know I look like minnie mouse very much thank you!)
I think it had been quite some time that I met up with my besties already! All of us are freaking busy....Chenkai and I! I told him to send a nice photo of us but instead, he sent this! *rolls eyes* Ah nevermind lor... I will just post this up.
I am busy working from monday all the way to friday doing paperwork with him and gang and weekends are usually either taken up by photoshoots, going out with him or just plain resting at home.
They, however, are working too!!!! It had been ever so long that I had met up with them - the last time was at Larre's birthday party? And to me, that's freaking long already!!!!
I think they have been missing me too... Or not. Michelle and Ang Chuan Ting are polly entertaining children signing up bank accounts at the POSB bank. I heard they are giving free chicken essence to the kids. -___-"
Yuling is working soon while May aka the rich brat, don't need to work at all and instead, stayed at home tutoring her brother and watching drama series. Pffft! Dixon is well... in army. :(
I freaking miss school... Although I used to dread going to school but school is fun cos you get to see your friends. But what is dreading me more now is - the date of my results is comingggggggg (Not before CNY of course. If not, I would not enjoy a nice CNY).
I could not stop thinking about the results I will be getting! I'm getting so paranoid that I'd even dreamt of receiving my results. Which I dumbly forgot the moment I woke up. I only knew I dreamt of my results.
Digressing further, WHY WILL WE (SOMETIMES) FORGET WHAT WE DREAMT OF THE MOMENT WE WOKE UP? Although we want to try to recall it as much as possible but to no avail.
Weird, isn't it?
Something weirder to think about... Why do we get dreams? Isn't sleeping about resting only? Okay, I know I'm too random to be thinking about such questions.
But it makes me wonder if animals do have dreams too. Maybe they do.. Cept they will be dreaming about having their next meal and deliciously licking their paws (if they have) then suddenly, they got killed by a hunter/predator in their dreams. Hahahaha, that would be really sad. Getting killed while in your dreamland.
Can't be helped though. It's the cycle of life so please don't say I am sadistic. :]
Okay, back to the topic.. Yeah, I miss all of it (not in order) - 06S26.. Odac... Besties... Darlings.. :[
Why am *I* missing them anyway? Slaps myself... They should be the ones missing me. Sigh... Thinking about all these especially results day got me so depressed that....
Luckily, his face ain't exposed... Otherwise, people will be laughing at him for having such a short........... Erhem.
I feel so happy right now, just when I felt pissed off a few days ago. I think I am so gemini!! Which, I AM. That's all for now. :3 I so can't wait for Chinese New Year now. Cos I can wear my cheongsam for house visits! Although it would be kind of embarrassing since I will most polly the only one wearing it. But still, pretty! *waits anxiously for cny*
Cos I have extreme mood swings that I couldn't stand myself. One moment I can be extremely happy and the next, I will be as moody as ever.
Gemini
The sign Gemini is symbolized by the Twins.Your sign's element is Air. Gemini is ruled by the planet Mercury.You want to know everything but never dig quite deep enough, usually just skimming the surface. Gemini is a jack of all trades. Gemini is highly adaptable and likes change and variety. You are restless and very clever with the use of your hands. Gemini is versatile, fickle, intelligent, creative, quick, neat, and curious. Gemini learns quickly and has the ability to get a good education.
I was reading this and I thought, omg, this is just so ME.
Yes, I found the word... which is: fickle. I can change my mind over something really fast enough, ie I may think that this particular clothing is pretty but after a while, I will decide that it is just oridinary and chose not to get it. Then, those going shopping with me will get pissed off cos I will keep asking them whether it's nice to reassure myself. Hahahaha.
And I am bored by the same old thing easily. So I love surprises! *hint hint* Actually, who doesn't? :D
Oh, I just bought the nicest dress I always wanted to buy. Eh, actually I can't actually say it's the nicest cos nicer dresses will come along in the future but still, it's nice!
It's the exact carbon copy of the Valerie dress that Joyce wore for prom. Just that it's in sophistical black.And the price is only 1/3 of the price of Valerie. Definitely affordable.
For me, I don't need reasonable dresses with fancy price tags. Just fancy dresses with reasonable price tags. So as long as the dress looks good and I look good wearing it, then I think it's definitely worth it (provided it doesn't exceed my budget).
Don't you all agree that the dress is oh-so-gorgeous? I know guys will focus on the girl more though.... ._.
I know bubble dresses are so over-rated but it's just so cutesy that I couldn't stand getting it. I could wear it and dance around so much that I would just become a bubble like the bubble dress and burst.
Zzz. I think I imagine too much. But still! Happy. And you can't make me feel any emotions other than happy. Not you anyway.
And as promised: The Cheongsam shoot at Chinese Gardens.
I woke up late at 8 am. Was supposed to meet him at 8 30 am at Chinese Gardens though. =S
So pia-ed down on cab but the freaking auntie doesn't know how to go! She was like going round and round and round and think I am stupid like I don't know she was going round and round and round.
In the end, we reached Chinese Gardens (west gate) but the photographer was at the mrt.
Wah and you know the most fury thing was, she doesn't know how to go to Chinese gardens MRT!!!!!!!
Which taxi driver of yours doesn't know how to go to a MRT? Tsk. -______-"
I was so pissed off and asked her, "Auntie, you don't know how to go Chinese Gardens MRT ah?"
She replied non-chalantedly that she hasn't been there for quite some while already. Walaos, the bill came up to 23 dollars but she accepted only 20 dollars but still, I think it's damn overpriced! Feels so fucked up during the trip cos I were already late and it took me like years to reach even though I travel by a cab. What's the use of cabbing when travelling by MRT is faster you tell me!
Furthermore, I asked my daddy how much it would cost for a trip from my house to Chinese Gardens then he said only about $12-$15. I feel so conned.
I also had to take another additional cab to the MRT cos the west gate was just too far away from the MRT. :(
Wah piang, typing this made me feel so pissed even though I was so happy just now. The nice photographer had to pay for the expensive cab fare though and it makes me feel so bad.
But we had a fun session at there even though it was so hot and stuffy.
Somemore, I feel so cheena all the way since I am wearing a cheongsam in Chinese Gardens. I would feel so paiseh if I were to wear it say, in the middle of Orchard roads.
The last time I feel so cheena was when I were in Chung Cheng but I'm not anymore and now, I'm even english speaking - to my classmates so my chinese had deteriorated alot. :( :( :(
It used to be one of my bestest subject. Sigh, old days in Chung Cheng....
Okay, back to the topic. So I was wearing a Cheongsam parading around and of course, I attracted alot of weird stares but still, I feel at home cos I am still afterall, in Chinese Gardens. :]
Hehehe. And I can feel the Chinese New Year's feeling slowly creeping up me already!
Love the photos too... (As you can see, the weather wasn't exactly good too - gloomy but turned for the better afterwards)
I give up on my chatango's box. Hahaha! Loves, Too lazy to find out what's wrong anyway.
Yawns. It's 4am now and I am blogging... I am absolutely such an owl. I hope it won't bring me eyebags/dark rings though. Otherwise, I will have to make an extra effort to put on more make up. Not that I do put on make up often. In fact, only to shoots now.
If you ever see me strolling among the lanes of marine parade without any make up and in spects and don't believe it is me, yes it is me. :D
I don't think there's much difference anyway since I am such a noob at make up. Hahaha. Amplify beauty or simply add more colours to your face? zzz!
Gah, I can't be bothered anyway. Cos I have been waking up late and getting out of house within 10 minutes (includes washing up too!).
Very tired now, at this hour cos I just went clubbing with Mr HCK. His first time with me. Super duper happy. Although I felt so tired after the photoshoot, I still managed to drag myself across to the Arena for some NUS event going on...
and paiseh to Kwanyee too for not celebrating her late birthday instead. We will make it on the other day ok? It's a promise! (:
Next post coming up.... My cheong sam photoshoot with a ever so nice photographer but a not so nice incident before the shoot.
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If you looked hard enough.. Goodbye!
Reason is.. I'm not going to let anyone comment about MY life and on goings cos it will only involves me. (:
Yes, me and only ME. You can read it as you wish, and leave as you want. I don't need fame, I don't need readers. I just need my family, my boyfriend, my friends and myself. Anyway, that's the reason why I set up this blog, for me and my friends to read. All's not a pretendence act. Cos I'm just being me.
I'm putting a chatango at my sidebar temporarily for those who wants to talk to me when I'm online cos I'm looking up about information to get a haloscan soon though. I don't know how but I'll try! Or... I would just leave this blog as it is, without any taggy. Hahah! Hmm.. or to those out there who knows one or two about how this thing works, do tell me if you're nice enough!
Hehe, my previous entry is a little harsh but that is because I am frigging angry about him. Still can lie through his teeth somemore!! Lie somemore and you will get castrated one day.. Let's count the days... 1...2...3...
Nonetheless, he loves doing tfcd (shoots that don't offer money in other words) for newbie models cos he can't afford paid shoots. Echoes cheapo. If anyone of you are interested, you can email him at yus_hp@yahoo.com.sg
Erm, I think better not. He don't provide very helpful photos to add on to your portfolio. And..
What if he got your zaogeng pic somewhere in his computer and ogle at it everytime he feels like masturbating? You wouldn't like that very much, would you? :(
*looks at pic and masturbates*
Ewwwwwwwww.. gross. Luckily, all the other nice photographers that I know are unlike him. Otherwise, I might just go mad.
On a lighter note, working is rather fun for me. Although we are doing the same paperwork everyday. The funny thing is, we got hooked onto the series, Survivor which shows at 1pm-2pm (our lunch break). Like die die also will watch.
I hate todd! He's one meanie that sticks with alot of people and backstab them. He even suggested to vote out his closest friend, Amanda. I know it's because he wants to be safe but that is not the way to do it? Amanda is like, such a nice lady lah. So I felt really sad that todd didn't get voted out in the end today. Nevermind! He will on MONDAY.
I can't wait to see him leave!!! Feels like swatting him like a fly and squeeze him till he breathes his last.
Sigh. Some people are just like that. They can't help it. *rolls eyes at the some people*
Nevermind, BAH to these people. Just go away already, you pests.
At the very least, looking a bright sunny photos will make your whole day better! Or maybe, when you just spent a fantastic time with you loved one at the esplanade. Totally erode away about all the stupid stuffs you experienced over the past days. [: Sunny photo! OMG, I'm such a poser. I don't even have any idea whose car is that. Hahahahaha.
So very pissed as I would say. Super annoyed about this malay photographer who took me in my second photoshoot.
Yup, the not-so-nice photoshoot as quoted from lily. Got very irritated with him! Now I know why some other models are pointing fingers at me. HAHA! Thanks so much eh?
I shall relive what happened then. He got a photoshoot with a model and he captured one of her zaogeng photos (not upper part but lower part and I mean her virg*na). I'm sure you guys know where I'm talking about. So I went to ask him about it.
He started picking an arguement with me so I went along with it and dig out some unpleasant stuffs about him being a hypocrite, liar etc.
One eg. is that he told the photographer that, "Irene doesn't want you there." Like, what the fuck, are you kidding me? Never in my life would I ever said that sentence. Even though I CAN BE mean sometimes. :)
Soooo.. he got really scared and paranoid that I will spread this thing out to the supposedly model and went on to tell tales about me. Like how cheap I am yada yada. You get the idea. That's like so dumb can? Spreading untruth tales, I repeat, tales, doesn't make you a better person, you pervert. Just fuck off man.
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ERM, okayyyy.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. He tickles my goosebumps so much I wanna cry.
To those who believe him, its all up to you anyway. I can't do much and I certainly won't have the need to explain myself again since my conscience is clear. :D
p.s Can you stop ruining my reputation huh? You need to save SOME for yourself instead, Mr Fathy. :)
Am seriously tired man. Must be due to the late nights and early morning wakings. Have been sleeping at 2-3 am and waking up at 8 or earlier. But what to do, I learnt that staying at home is much more boring-er thing to do. p/s: Quote of the day: Have you ever sniff any resemblance between blogger queen, Xiaxue and mine due to the difference of a zero in between? Don't make me laugh.
At least, I'm getting paid for doing what I also do at home (which includes msn-ing, surfing net and talking to friends). :D
Even though it's a lowly rate of $6/hr but at least, it's not a job that I have to slog my ass off, for that matter. I love how I can see my love right beside me working too. Tell me, which job can be better than this? Other than modelling.
Yeah, so it's not the monetary value but the person I get to see that matters. Hahahaha. He's the motivation for me to wake up early in the morning just to catch the bus in time.
We knocked off at half day today cos he is going to play soccer with his friends at a nearby cage or something and I went there to see him in action!
But I kept dozing off while watching him play though. It was so darn boring. As in seeing 10 guys chasing after a ball. I rather gave them 1 ball each so that they do not need to risk their lives chasing the only ball in the court.
The weather is so fucking hot too. Make us feel super pissed off cos they are like, sweatings like pigs. Yes, pig sweats. Human perspires. Just like in chinese, only can say pig is fei but human is pang. Although both means the same (fat). Okay, I'm digressing already.
Hahaha. But still, feeling the same happiness in me cos Chenkai is treating me better and better since the last time.
BEST.MOODY.MEDICINE.EVER.CREATED. Totally brightens up my gloomy day yesterday.
Random photo below cos I just received it...I'm still working on my expressions! and that's all folks!!!! (:
Today I shall talk about this topic - Beauty. I think beauty comes from within. Not your physical looks though. What do you guys think?
Imagine getting stripped of all your features, will everyone look the same? Why is everyone so different? Why can't the world be full of only people with nice personalities, who don't swear (erhem, I'm guilty of that), who don't gossip (this too), who don't smokes, don't murder, don't steal and don't tell lies?
Why? Gosh, if I think like that, I will become Mr Hilter soon who wants a perfect world too and I wouldn't want that, do I?
I think the world is not perfect.. No one is.. But at the very least, we can still sense the humanity in this world and bonds which foster over time that makes all the flaws seem nothing to us.
Loving someone is accepting all his flaws and seeing him as the perfect someone. Yes, talking about Mr Ho Chen Kai here. :D
I believe that applies to all and everyone else. There must be instances where you find that particular person not physically attractive but attractive because of her personality. I dare to say this applies to all my besties. Love them loads! Just met up with them like yesterday for larre's birthday. *screams happy birthday to larre*
Let's side track a little, I think I'm really blessed so far to have my besties to fall back on whether I am down or not in the mood. I'm also blessed to have a caring enough family who don't mind me doing photoshoots too. Last but not least, I am blessed to have an understanding boyfriend. Much as he dislikes me going for photoshoots, he still supports me in this so I'm really grateful.
Gah, so blessed. Maybe this is what they call, zhi zhu chang le. (:
Back to the topic, I feel that some people really shows their ugly side, especially when jealousy arises. I hate that and certainly doesn't want anything to do with it. Just give me a break, already. Or simply, fuck off. *insert fake smile here* Please don't get angry. :(
I feel that it is incredibly superficial to get close/know a person for the sake of knowing that person. Can't do much anyway. I shall just let nature takes its course.
Of course, much as I sound like an hostile person in my blog, please feel free to email me at snowy_irene@hotmail.com if you have anything to say to me. You will hear my most sincere reply.
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Anyway, that's my random ramblings. Got nothing much to do with this blog entry anywayyyy.
Remember when I said I want to blog about the happy stuffs I experience everyday?
Yesterday was one of my happiest day this month cos Chenkai was with me the whole day long. Actually, not whole day lah. But from afternoon all the way till the night.
And we went shopping!!!! (: (: (:
Isetan was currently having sales. Super cheap relative to their original prices! I got 2 dresses and another pair of heels. Spent a total of $80 yesterday but all's worth it.
No wonder they say shopping works like a therapy. Provided you have the money. Otherwise, you will be the one ogling at those pretty clothes instead with your empty pockets. That will be really sad.
After that, we went to larre's birthday barbeque! As I mentioned earlier, met up with my clique there alongside with my love. Best of both worlds eh?
May surprised me with her new outlook, curls! I was like damn shocked can? She didn't even tell us about it. Hahahaha! But I guess that's why it came as a surprise - to surprise us.
Chenkai and me got our own private time at larre's condo and it turned out really awesome. We talked about lots of things, cleared out quarrels etc and I love him more than ever. :D
Playing tag in the pool is darn fun too!!! Especially when you're the catcher and had to walk in fast steps to catch your friends. Just that getting wet = cold. Luckily I brought a set of new clothes to change in. (:
Love yesterday, my clique and Mr HCK....
Oh, I also got another photoshoot last week. Love the photos. :)
But I've only retrieve a few photos from the photographer so far. But it's okay, he's gonna pass it to me soon. Here's the 2 photos... Ermmm.. just a different look, hair tied up.
Fucking stop that or I will.... *scorns hard*
I'm back with a cheery self once again. Much to the events that happened...... I think I don't look good in this photo but he does. So I'm putting this up. Look, I'm so happy that he can carry me up! Now there's no reason that anyone can say I am fat cos he can carry me. *jumps around whoopingly* I know you guys will retaliate by saying he's the strong one instead. Yeahhhhh... that's true. Heh! That's why I love him. I know, that's gonna be the ninth reason why I love him! Cos I made him a 8 reasons why I love him card on our 8th month. I know, that is very very sweet of me. I love how the card turns out too! I tore out bits and bits of papers from magazine and made a 8 figure shape. [= I think he likes it... Errr.. At least I think so. Some of the photos from the previous photoshoot. I love how the photos turn out. Makes me... looks superbly nice. The photographer who took this is really nice to me. Explained everything to me and gives me new ideas on how to pose etc. He even brought me to eat Rochor taohuei (Chuanting's favourite apparently). Chuanting has been on going telling me how nice it tasted and that I should try it. I did. And I don't find any difference leh. Maybe I am not into the taohuei stuff. But their soya bean drink is not bad la. A friend of mine thought I paid for these photoshoots. My answer is NO. They should be the ones paying for me instead. Talking about this, I just receive $100 for a photoshoot yesterday. $$ come! (: . . . . . p.s I really love him lots and lots. HAHA! The photo above really makes me smileeeeeee... Prove me wrong. I love this photo! My dress looks darn nice right? I know it looks a little translucent at the bottom part but I wore stockings and shorts inside.. So it's like, chey! Nothing to fantasize about. :P
AH loves. *_____*
I used to diss people who always emo on their blogs, for I think it is so dumb la. Imagine this scenario: Let me hear you say hey hey hey -By Avril Lavigne
"I'm so ugly and fat. My friends and family think so too. I've got no boyfriend. Nobody loves me. I hate everyone. I should just slash my wrist and die."
-I would go ahead and say, "Go ahead". *Rolls eyes*
But I am getting so depressed these few days and I couldn't help it. I think those who read blog can't bear me anymore. :(
It's just dumb, sad entries with lots of vulgar words to express my anger at that point of time. Yeah, totally boring.
I want all my entries to be happy *inserts fake smile here* but I feel so lethargic to write new entries too. I rather blog-hop and read some strangers' blogs than to write an entry.
But well, things just weren't going smooth for me. I wonder why? Why is it that other people's lives seem so much better than mine? Sigh, I guess that's why they say the grass is always greener on the other side. We envy people not knowing that others envy us too.
I have to keep in mind that - Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want, doesn't mean that he doesn't love you with all he has got. Whenever I read this, it gives me the comfort that I want.
On another note, I skipped work today. Weren't feeling too good. Don't ask me why. You guys don't really want to read those lame dramas in my life, do ya? haha.
Yesterday, I was a miserable, poor bitch but today, I felt better. It's like after crying your way to sleep, you wake up and forgot about everything. Feels much more forgiving too. But darn, the swollen eyes. And also, staying at home means a loss of income. I feel so bah-ed.
PMS? Maybe. I wonder why I've been feeling this way for this entire week. Makes me feel like god is punishing me due to the goodness I had experienced for the past few months aka not working days.
Alright, now let me hear you say hey hey
hoI hate it when a guy doesn't get the door
Even though I told him yesterday
and the day before
I hate it when a guy doesn't get the tab
And I have to pull my money out and that looks bad
Where are the hopes,
where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see
That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same
And yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble but I'm a hell of a scandal
Me I'm a scene
I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
Alright Alright yeah
I hate it when a guy doesn't understand
Why a certain time of month I don't want to hold his hand
I hate it when they go out and we stay in
And they come home smelling like their ex-girlfriend
But I found my hopes I found my dreams
My Cinderella story scene
Now everybody's gonna see
That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same
And yeah yeah yeah
I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble but I'm a hell of a scandal
Me I'm a scene
I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever
When you're fucking pissed and you have no idea why you did and that you shouldn't but you are?
Less than 1 day leh. Whatever happens to the 7 days exchange. Gah! I won't buy shoes from them anymore. Lousy shoes. I advise the same for you guys. C&K shoes are better and much more comfortable too.
Fyi, I wore them again today and to my dismay, blisters started to form. Damn pain too. I feel so pathetic having to walk about despite knowing that more blisters will be forming. :( :( :(
I am so fucking pissed.
Scenario 2:
Yes, yes I am starting work. Something to be happy about. The morning pisses me off cos the lady who asked me to come today didn't know I am coming today and I don't have the ID or whatever to officially start work.
I am so pissed that I look like this now. Come nearer and I'll eat you up.
I am so fucking pissed.
But the consolation is, during lunch breaks, that lady says confirmed the ID already so can work and today is counted as day 1 for me.
Scenario 3:
One of my friends backed out in something that was confirmed. But I'm glad the date was pushed back due to some accidents though. And I do not have any fucking idea how to solve it. It's too troublesome anyway. Might have to cancel away the whole plan.
I am so fucking pissed.
Scenario 4:
My poor feet hurt. Ooh, I mentioned that, didn't I? :(
I am so fucking pissed.
How would you like when your boyfriend says his dad is going to fetch him, the bus stop is god damnit so far away (I don't know why it's not near the library cos the library is supposed to be the main attraction anyway) at least for my heels to carry me, it was drizzling slightly and you have to drag yourself to the "near by" bus stop to wait for a bus to go home?
Her: What are you doing now?
Him: Sleeping.
Her: *looks at time anxiously* Happy 8th months
Him: It's 12 already?
.... :(
crappy.
For a picture speaks a few thousand words. (:
Wee.. I'm a baby again! xD
Me as a young child...
Teenager? (This is how I look currently duh)
Young adult. Phew, not that old YET.
But... Check this out...
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.Damn ewwwwww. All the freckles, winkles, bigger nose?! I don't wanna grow up to look like this!!!
I still prefer...
THIS VERY MUCHIE. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!
awwwwws.. Baby! :]