_my love for you;

I love eating back my words

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

I hate the seafood spagetti I ate in school today after typing an entire blog post on how I love seafood.

Cos it's totally awful sia and I paid like $3.70 for something I don't even like. :(

Okay, $3.70 isn't exactly very expensive compared to the food I have been feeding on recently but hell, it is from TPJC canteen which thus, is considered A LOT. The stall lady must had been damn happy la. Hahaha. ~~All thanks to Kek's good recommendation.~~

I feel so conned but ahhh... what to do? Sigh.

And you guys haven't been reading wrongly. Yep, I went back to school. I don't know if it's a blessing or a curse cos I only got back because I failed my GP. Hahaha. Which is totally unexpected anyways. Double sad face. :( :(

But but but.. At least the school is giving second chances for me to excel this time? I hope it's gonna be something rewarding although I have applied for various stuffs too. *Must always have plan B or even.. C!*

I simply don't know what I want to be for my life. -______-"

I cannot imagine myself sticking to just one job for my entire life. Man, how boring. Sooooooo..

Irene's back to school for now! Perhaps for the next few days/weeks, she will turn into a geek who scores straight As. ~~Yeah how I wish.~~

-Sign Off @ 11:30 PM :)

Food

Thursday, March 20, 2008

I just couldn't stop myself from eating and eating. My mum cooked abalone porridge today for dinner. YUMS. :]

I cannot understand how people detest abalone. Hahaha. Nevermind, the more they detest, the better it is cos I will get to eat more this way.

I caught 10,000 BC like finally. I've been always wanting to watch it since A levels release day but no one is game enough to watch it except for my dearie. Hahaha.

The movie is damn nice la! Very high budget types and I dig the story plot. All the proversy and stuffs. The female lead is also pleasing to the eyes. My eyes were glued to the movie throughout. And after the movie, I realised that mammoth is damn scary + fierce. They are so unlike elephants (which is supposed to originate from them?).

But I really liked the movie! I think it's way nicer than step up 2 and guess what? We caught it at students price which is $6 each. Damn LOL. But dearie has to be badsport saying that all the movies I chose sucks and his "30 days of night" is the best. =.="

I am convinced he likes the movie darn alot too! Just don't want to admit only. Hahaha.

And... we ate at billy bombers again. Cos they have a 1 for 1 fish and chips for movie goers. The total bill comes up to $28 [We ordered an addition cookies and cream milkshake] which means $14 for one person. So it ain't that cheap either. Suckers.

Told you I was a glutton. I cannot stop carving for food and I just can't stop eating....

Luckily I have high metabolism for now since my food intake is obviously so much higher than other girls yet I am not fat yet.

Look what I had when I met up with Fronda and Dennis to hand up the timesheet to the in charge at clark quay last monday. -___________-"

Yep, you read it. I had Manhattan for the first time in my life. I seen that place in a few blogger's post but it was my first time eating it and it was Dennis' treat. Awesome yeah? :D

Pretty Fronda and me.

We had a hard time deciding what to eat cos there were just so many choices and variety. But I guess this is the favourite restaurant I could go to cos I choose seafood over any other food. Okay, maybe sirloin steak is an exception but still, seafood is the nicest food on earth, at least for me. :]

I am so hungry that I attempted to eat the menu up. *Give me food!* >=]

Us with Dennis.

Finally, our seafood platter for 2 (shared with Fronda) arrived!

I love the fried mushroom the most. Cos when you bite on it, you taste the cripsy-ness and the juice will splurt out into your mouth. Seriously it's damn nice lah.

The fish was the second nicest. Like duh, it's a place famous for its fish. Yeah? Hahaha. However, I personally feel that fish&co prawns, rice and calamari is nicer though.

So overall, fish&co is still my favourite place for seafood platter but then I like manhattan's fried mushroom. I feel like I kept repeating myself but it's really nice! :]

But the portion was damn big though! We have difficulty finishing the entire thingy even with Dennis' help cos he already ate some platter for one for himself. Hahaha. So it is still worth it bah.

However, like they say, despite girls being so full, there is always room for dessert. It's as if the space for dessert is always reserve there even if we are damn full.

So we ordered a..

Brownie with ice cream and hot fudge.

Look how happy I am. LOL!

and we gobbled it up within seconds! Cos girls just adore sweet stuffs [pun intended]. :D

Hee. Thank you Dennis for your treat! I really love love love food. Anyone wanna donate to Irene's needy fund so that she can afford to buy more food to stuff her stomach with?

Please?

-Sign Off @ 2:25 AM :)

shoots, choices and more.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

I am not going to comment anything about that matter anymore since Hakim has asked me to stop the quarrel with you since yesterday. Thank you very much but as I said, I am drawing this matter to a close. Like it or not.

Cos this is Irene. :]

Oh wells, so much drama. Life has been fun for me though. I went to a couple of photoshoots, hanging out with friends, HCK and working. Caught up with many movies since so looooooong ago that I even forgotten some.

Which is why I think sometimes it is such a waste of money watching movies cos we will forget the story plot and even not remember watching such a movie... But we just couldn't stop ourselves from going to these movies time and again. Especially movies like Harry potter which is like a must watch in cinemas otherwise will have no mood kind.

The most recent dumbest movie that I had watch is "Meet the spartans". It is so darn lame and at some point I just don't get what they are going at. The shrek baby was hilarious though but then, it is HCK who wanted to watch this movie and so, I decided to go for it despite me not favouring this type of movies. It's like the copy of scary movie but I feel, in my personal opinion, scary movie is a little better. Hahaha.

But step up 2 and 27 dresses are not bad though. I didn't manage to catch P.S I love you. I heard it was so good that so many teared but HCK don't like to watch such movies one. Oh well, ain't complaining here but getting him to watch 27 dresses with me is already an achievement. :D

And currently, I am faced with so many choices in life that I do not know which one to choose. Should I choose something that I have passion in? Or should I choose something that I am able to excel at? Or should I just take whatever that comes my way? I don't know. It's such a dilemma cos one wrong choice will probably make me regret like forever.

Sigh. Life...

Perhaps it would have been easier if everything is like a dreamland where everyone lives happily ever after but very harshly, things don't really go the way you want it to be. So, do you blame others for that or do you repoach yourself first? Haha. Think about it. Very few people would choose #2 though. ._.

Some of the nice photos from the previous photoshoots... More to come next time.

It was raining outside so we were trapped indoors. But the rain behind gives a very nice feel to this overall pic. The photographer is very nice too~ He treated us, chuanting and me (I brought her to the shoot too cos we are going for dinner with May and Mel afterwards) to Haagen daaz. :]

Music Mosaic~~! We saw this out of nowhere and it looked odd so the playful us decided to have a go at it and you know what? The music thingy really works. Duh right? =.="

One of the only outdoor shot we managed to get cos it started raining and drizzling all over the place again.

I am lazy to post up other photos already. Perhaps next time. I promise.

-Sign Off @ 2:09 PM :)

This is it.

http://chuanting-and-i.blogspot.com/

I feel.................. erm I don't know?

Actually, I feel alot better cos it was HCK who read the entire thing to me instead of me facing the com reading it alone. Many thanks to my dearest HCK. :]

and.. I wronged Hakim cos of the girl's entry and I am sorry for that.

Perhaps if you're the girl's friends, I suggest you go read my previous post again. I am not angry towards the breakup but the aftermath. Especially it's her way of writing that pisses me off. I'm gonna say - it's not only me. Seriously?

Hahaha. Okay. I am a tad tired of all these things. It was entertaining for a sec seeing how she defends herself and all but then it gets boring all too soon. So this is it. I'm leaving this mess alone.

I couldn't imagine if one day HCK's close girl friend were to do the same thing to me using her way of method. My... how nasty. :(

-Sign Off @ 4:22 AM :)

Bastard part II

Monday, March 17, 2008

Thank you for your word of advice, Irene. However, we should listen to both
sides of the story before any judgment is heard.

i heard from Hakim that both of you had a talk last night and i’m glad
things work it out and you decided to delete that post of yours.

To Chuan Ting:Actually i dun wanna settle it on the blog. i prefer to
meet you face to face, but after reading this entry, you can arrange a meeting
if you wan. it’s easier this way rather than the childish method. ok, do you
remember we talked on the phone last week? you were telling me how sorry you
were and that you know it was your fault that Hakim left you. and then i ask you
a question, are you willing to give in to Hakim? and you kept quiet. then after
a while you said you love him very much. i told you relationship is not about
taking. you need to give in too, if not this relationship will be a one man show
and ya, it will not lasts. i talked to you nicely on the phone. you ask me do
whatever thing you said and i did. but that night we met, you insulted me. i did
not blame you cause like what i said on the phone, i understand your plight.
i’ve been thru it b4 and i know. i did not insult you back i walk off. but ya,
the next day we met again, you apologised and i told you it’s ok i didnt blame
you. Chuan Ting, you should know Hakim well enough. if he’s a bastard, would he
still be there for you and promise to walk through this with you until you find
someone or when you are ready to stand alone?? i tell you, it’s rare to find
someone like that. you know very well how nice Hakim treats you, if not you
wouldnt hold on to this relationship at all.. He has done so many things for
you. have you forgotten them? you chose friends over him sometimes but he chose
you over friends always. He send you to work, had lunch with you, and then fetch
you from work. which guy would go to the distance for a girl if this love is
fake? you been clinging on to him since the day you told him you wanna break.
have you ever thought carefully before deciding if you really wanna break?
because you see, all the recent break ups is you who wanna break not him. and if
it’s over good reason we can understand but not over hypothetical questions or
assumptions. like what you told me, you know it’s your fault but you cant let
go. honestly, if he treats you bad, you can let go easily. actually you know it
yourself how much Hakim did for you. to let a relationship lasts longer, we shld
not cling on the person’s past. what’s past let it pass. what’s done cannot be
undone. we shld live each day to the fullest. Chuan Ting, honestly, you will
find a better guy. it just takes time. time is the best healer. all the best to
you!
March 16, 2008Categories: Uncategorized
. . Author: snowdalicia

Her blog entry? So lol-able. Faking as someone's girlfriend is pathetic. Makes me wonder why. And no - I would not take down my blog entry cos this is my blog and I am not obliged to take down something I firmly believe in. Thus, I decided to leave a comment and it erupted to this.

Comment by Irene on March 17, 2008 5:07 am

Okay. it’s fine that you deleted my previous comment but I read your post again which is updated again when I pressed the send comment button.

Do you seriously think you’re not at fault at all? Conscience my dear. Conscience. Karma will come in both ways. :]

“and then i ask you a question, are you willing to give in to Hakim? and you kept quiet.”.. my dear, sometimes just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want her to be, doesn’t mean that that someone doesn’t love him with all she does.

Please, take that in mind. Whatever whatever, being a liar(You lying about being his girlfriend) is just wrong. Just admit your mistake already and stop embarrassing yourself in front of all my readers.

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 5:19 am

i did not see your previous comment. Why not you ask Chuan Ting why she lie about distorting the fact and make it sound as though it was Hakim fault when she told me she know it was her fault? i apologise to Chuan Ting for making it up that i was Hakim gilrfriend. at least you know i was lying cause you know Hakim well enough that he wasnt a bastard after all. before you can judge me as to why i lie, pls ask yourself why must i do that? anyway, this childish act shld nt be carried on. pls ask Chuan Ting out. we’ll meet and talk. BTW, this matter concerns only chuan ting me and Hakim. even the parties involved did not say anything.

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 5:24 am

you claim you were helping Chuan Ting. then why do you let her hurt herself again and again by not stopping her from clinging on to Hakim? A good friend shldnt just comment and yt do nothing. actions must be done with words. i rather you use the time to talk to her and persuade her.

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 5:29 am

yeah karma will come so do you think by judging others is right? before you wanna make a comment, think smart and make sure you do not contradict yourself.

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Comment by Irene on March 17, 2008 5:33 am

Hello girl, get your facts right.

If you read my post very very carefully, you will notice it was HAKIM who come and find her after she did not want to contact him at all. WHY?

Makes me angry man. I was there and I don’t want them to talk at all. But then Hakim wholeheartedly wanted to have a private talk with her. She wasn’t the one who initiated the meet up. She doesn’t even want to meet up and Hakim has to call through me to get to her. What for?

Perhaps Chuanting has been contacting him these few days cos YOU made her feel that Hakim is a bastard just by going for other girl a few days after the breakup. I feel that way too - and I am convinced that it is YOUR fault instead.
Prove me that I am wrong and I will back off. You can’t right?

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 5:41 am

Chuan Ting and me talked last week and she know that it’s definitely not a third party that causes all this but her action. u can ask her herself. since a break has already initiated, and a final break this time, she has no rights to interfere Hakim’s private life. even if Hakim were to have a girlfriend, it will be deem as Chuan Ting being the 3rd party as their break up is totally based on Chuan Ting action. you can ask her that cause she herself told me that last week.

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 5:45 am

So right now for the good of Chuan Ting, you shld ask Chuan Ting to forget about him and stop contacting Hakim. Have a clean break up. and i make sure Hakim will do likewise.

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Comment by Irene on March 17, 2008 5:49 am

“since a break has already initiated, and a final break this time, she has no rights to interfere Hakim’s private life. even if Hakim were to have a girlfriend, it will be deem as Chuan Ting being the 3rd party as their break up is totally based on Chuan Ting action. you can ask her that cause she herself told me that last week.”

Hello, you’re not answering my question babe. I am asking why Hakim tries to persuade her again even after the break up (which you seem clueless about).
And I do not understand your sentence structure, probably due to your lackof of english about even if Hakim were to have a girlfriend, it will be deem as Chuan Ting being the 3rd party as their break up is totally based on Chuan Ting action??????

???? What are you rambling about?

You mean Chuanting causing the breakup of the new girlfriend? I am amazed by your mindset since the question of the new girlfriend is not even founded.

I do not question about the reason for the breakup (it is of between them) but that, I feel that people should not be able to move on so fast (comeon, we are talking about a few days only and this concerns me cos she is my friend) to other girls just after a breakup. So in this way, he is a bastard.
Get my point? ditto.

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 5:50 am

How can there be faults when one had already break up and severe ties with another? and wadever Hakim does outside his private life is not of Chuan Ting concern as he does not have to account to her for everything that happen to his private life as we all know the definition of a break up. So Chuan Ting shldnt even have contact Hakim or beg for him to come back as she was the one who initiate a break up unless she doesnt know the definition of it, then too bad, i have nth to say.

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 5:57 am

well well well. perhaps your eng is not of depth to understand my simplify english. you dont get my point? i shall put it to SIMPLE eng then. Because Chuan Ting break with Hakim, so therefore Hakim has the right to date other girls am i right? Because Hakim is no longer at liability nor accountable to Chuan Ting for his actions. And if Hakim were to find a new girlfriend, and if Chuan Ting were to come into the pic, it’s obvious Chuan Ting is the third party because they had alr broken up. Imagine if you and ur ex had alr broken up, u’re dating ur current bf, and if your ex appears again, do you see him as a 3rd party or see ur current bf as a third party? yeah depends on situation. this situation is simple, Hakim broke up with Chuan Ting is because he could not stand her unreasonable behaviour not because of any other girls. Get it? it’s simple. even my younger bro can understand.

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Comment by Irene on March 17, 2008 5:58 am

LOL, seems like you’re a tough nut to crack.

And I am like playing piano to a cow. Just forget it. You do not understand that it is hurting that your ex just gets attached to other girls (regardless of fabricated tales or whatsoever) in just a matter of days even if it doesn’t concern her anymore. :]

And definitely, chuanting will have no more relations to Hakim again. If she does, I will probably cook her in curry cos obviously, Hakim isn’t all that good that you imagine him to be - I do not want to expose what he did with other girls during their relationship. You can polly question him yourself.

This shall be my last comment since this arguement is getting nowhere and I am still RIGHT about this.

p.s I am actually glad that they broke up.

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 5:58 am

dude, as to your quest in why Hakim wanna talk to her is because he wanna a clean break up because he knows Chuan Ting well enough that she will call him and beg for him. And he doesnt want that to happen.

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Comment by snowdalicia on March 17, 2008 6:00 am

it’s hurting if Hakim were to break with Chuan Ting. but you must get your facts right. It’s Chuan Ting who wanna break with Hakim. so Hakim has the right. do you agree?

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Comment by Irene on March 17, 2008 6:03 am

LOL, you meant what I quoted in my blog ” You think it’s easy for me to let go? You think I can just go to any girls after we just broke up? My heart is still with you, you know?” as wanting a clean break? It’s more like he wants her back.

You mean if say I break up with my boyfriend, I am at fault and he can just get another girl in a few days? It is acceptable for some weird people like YOU who obviously don’t care less but it is wrong to normal people like us. :]

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Comment by Irene on March 17, 2008 6:04 am

oops and I exceeded my last comment cos I couldn’t stand how you reply on baseless grounds.

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And with that, I puked blood and had to be sent to hospital for that. Some people just don't get it.

-Sign Off @ 2:35 PM :)

Bastard

Sunday, March 16, 2008

I talked to one of my friends on msn and part of the conversation goes like this...

DennisC says: got this guy v strange
DennisC says: dont belong to cosplay but
bring his gf or sth dont know
DennisC says: like indonesian. she pose that
guy keep scolding and demanding her
DennisC says: v bad leh 2 treat that gal
like that
Irene says: haiya some guys are like that one
Irene says:
they dun deserve any girls
DennisC says: zzz yalor some more the gal is
gorgeous

So today I wanna talk about guys who don't deserve any girls. NONE at all. Talking about this makes my blood boil I tell you.

The worse thing? It happens to my bestie. :(

I always knew that that guy is no good - no matter how he masks himself using the fake gifts and so. I knew. But I said nothing cos I didn't want to affect their relationship. All I wanted is to feel happy for my bestie as long as she is happy. But that's what hurting her now I guess. ~~For those who knows who my bestie is (kinda obvious anyway) Well, you should know him as well.~~

Long story ahead....

I heard about him liking her during JC1 orientation. In fact, a few were interested in her at that period of time and I wasn't that close to her yet. Afterwards, I heard about him liking some other girls in the school. (Okay, pretty normal but everytime it's DIFFERENT girls)

OMFG lah. Crush also will have only 1 or 2 only what. Right? At least for my case lah. But I heard at least 5 different girls lor. From then, I started to have the mentality that he is a player. Note that I use 'is' and not 'was'.

Actually, the relationship was like really unstable for a few times. I saw the times when Hakim *oops I can't control myself any longer* flared up, throw things and punch the table or an object near her.

Walao eh. I tell you if any guy do that to me, I will effing slap him straight away. So what? Violence now? Tsk.

This type of guys totally don't deserve you, my darling.

Afterwards, for the recent break up, my bestie tried to fill her life with other things and so, but that bastard has to come and meet her. I was with her and he sound as if he will die without her.

Quote from Him: You think it's easy for me to let go? You think I can just go to any girls after we just broke up? My heart is still with you, you know?

Fuck man. All bullshit. 2 days after... It was confirmed that he is not only a sweet talker, he is a bloody liar.

Don't believe me? Look at this.

I am so fucking angry!!!!!!!!!!!!111

I should not have left that day for them to have their private talk afterwards. I should have said, "Hell no. Fuck off from her. We are going home."

It saddens me to know that someone can get over a break up so soon. Does it means that the love that they shared is fake?

If it is not, then why? Don't tell me retarded answers like, he's using the other person to get over his breakup. If he is doing this, he is worse than an asshole I tell ya.

And.... I don't understand why girls fall for him either.

1) He is short.
2) Not exactly handsome.
3) Not academically inclined.
4) Not rich.
5) A player known to be.
6) Dangerous and violent.
7) Possessive.
8) Liar.
9) Of other race. ( Not trying to be racist here but not alot of other races girls can accept boyfriends from other race? Not me. Angmohs exception! :] )
10) Got ljb. *Figure this out yourself*
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And the list goes onnnnn until the number reaches 32432412381249238492374....

So my bestie, ANG CHUAN TING, please don't feel sad for this incident. He is SO obviously not worth it. You will definitely meet much better guys in university and just forget about this stupid bastard over here.

:]

I am still fucking angry though. These guys need to be castrated. Seriously. *Roll eyes*

-Sign Off @ 11:02 PM :)

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

I am not dead.

LOL. (Better laugh now than later.. Else 2 more days later when it is results day.. I may not be able to laugh anymore.)

I so so so don't want to get back my results foreverrrrr.. :(

I still want to play!!!!!111

I know, I could come up with a song and forget about these whole dreadful stuffs.

Like,

Results, results go away
Come back on another day
Little Irene still want to play?

Okay, lame. -________-"

*Mentally throws the results day idea out of window*

Btw, I have found another job already! Only need to work 3 days in a week and the pay is not bad too as compared to other jobs lah. And I got to see so many people today. Not bad I would say. :D

I don't really have much things to blog about actually cos these few days, I have been staying home and play wahjong. Yes, it's wahjong with a W cos it's an online mahjong.

I think at least not so pissed cos if you lose, you won't feel the pinch. Just feel like ah then nevermind lor... Cos it's just a game. It's more fun to play with friends than strangers though. *hint hint to peeps who play wahjong too*

:D

Shall end this post abruptedly of course with a picture of ME!

I bet you guys missed me.... RIGHT? *singles out the 'NO's*

I love how I look in this photo. Uber funny, like I just pooped. LOL!

-Sign Off @ 2:28 AM :)