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Perverts who enjoy taking upskirt photos of girls.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Never thought it would happened to me. BUT IT DID!

Wtf lor. Today I was just innocently taking the escalator up (meeting patrik dear for lunch) and playing my iphone. I was wearing the zebra printed dress which I did wear before in the previous blog entry but this time with a tube. And it is not exactly short short.

So like I said, I was on my iphone then suddenly there was a commotion behind.

Brave Guy : HEY WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
Pervert: Huh what?
Brave Guy: I SAW YOU TAKING VIDEO OF HER UPSKIRT.
Pervert: No I did not. *Scared look*
Brave Guy: Then let us check your phone.
Pervert: Who are you? I did not.
Brave Guy : Yes I saw you doing it! *Turns to me* Do you know him?
Me: Nooooo. *omfg what is happening!*
Brave Guy: Do you want to report this?
Me: Yes.

The brave guy tried to restrain the guy along with another girl but the pervert still managed to escape lor. He practically struggled and fled the scene. :(

But I was like erm nevermind bah, since I am wearing shorts underneath. Somewhat thankful for that cos it has been a habit since young. My girlfriends think it is stupid to wear shorts underneath because it defeats the purpose of wearing skirts. But when such incidents occur, at least you have protected yourself! Can't imagine if the fucker had a photo of me in my undies and escaped. I will surely kill myself for not wearing shorts.

Really kudos to the brave guy lor! I don't think there is many guys like him around already! And his girlfriend was just beside him and supported him by trying to restrain him as well. I hope there's karma for the fucker. May he be nabbed one day.

It's really scary when it happens to you. I really wanted to report him but then I was just too stunned. If such things happens to me ever again, I will surely report the next fucker who do similar stunts.

xoxo,
xia0xue

-Sign Off @ 10:29 PM :)

Something personal

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Today, I'm gonna talk about something sensitive. Didn't talk about this cos previously still quite affected by it but now since I don't feel anything at all olready I will just rant here.

Sometimes, when I think back about my past relationship, I can't help but scorn upon it. Maybe I was being really naive and wasn't thinking much about relationships or whatsoever.

I believe that when you met someone you truly love, you won't have any crush on any other guys right? I felt quite bad having a crush while I was having a ~~fail~~ relationship but I guess there was no helping it. It takes two hands to clap, isn't it? Because I wasn't fully satisfied with my partner I guess. But I didn't do anything regarding the crush and still sticked with him proved that at least I'm not such a bitch. LOL.

I was browsing through all my blog entries and I realised that those that I drafted mostly were unhappy stuffs regarding him. Fml seriously. Example the below:

Why the hell is everything like this? Why the fuck can't people just understand me? Even you.

So what if I am wilful? So what if I am being such a bitch to you? You don't care either right? You would just ignore me like you always do.

Just like how insignificant today can be seen to you -- You don't even fucking remember. Soccer always come first until... I show displeasure and ask you to go ahead and you started feeling guilty.

LOL okay. Weird thing is - I don't remember this at all.

Might as well I just put all my drafted blog post here. Some are super emo until I can't stand it also. :(

I don't know why this is all back to haunt me.
Why did the tears and heartbreaks come back?
Did I do any wrong?
Ignoring me or acting like you didnt care - it hurts a lot.
Alot Alot.

Sometimes I feel that some other things
Are more important than me
To you

Maybe it's just you being you
And me being me
But if we're worlds' apart
Why would fate bring us together again?

You're like candyfloss
wrapping me with sweetness and happiness
But I hate it when you're like berlin wall
blocking me far far away from you

You don't know how much tears I'd shed
You don't know how much it hurts my heart
Which bled
Enough to flow a river

Please stop all these
Before all's left is a hollow shell
All feelings gone
And dead.

How I wish all these
Will come to an end soon
For I want back
The smiles I once had

Comments:
Omg just let me die. I didn't know I was capable of coming up with poems.

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I even wrote this entry back then. Some of you might have read this before. Click here.

How would you like when your boyfriend says his dad is going to fetch him, the bus stop is god damnit so far away (I don't know why it's not near the library cos the library is supposed to be the main attraction anyway) at least for my heels to carry me, it was drizzling slightly and you have to drag yourself to the "near by" bus stop to wait for a bus to go home?

The boyfriend expressed unwillingness towards ferrying you along cos his dad doesn't know you yet and it is not along the way. You suggested drop off at some more convenient mrt instead but were rejected again. Worse thing is, he can even fetch his friend all the way to his house and not me! And they drove off right in front of my eyes.

Don't ask me why the boyfriend's dad doesn't know you yet. I have no idea. Ask the boyfriend.

And your legs hurt like fuck. You just feel like killing yourself over and over again.

Sigh. I shouldn't blame him. For I may do the same too. Perhaps it's due to having a bad feet day.

I am so fucking pissed.

Comments: Judge for yourself. I even blame myself for whatever he did lor! I can't believe it. Omigosh. This was like so not me. Argh. Never let a guy step all over you and think that you are a pushover lor. It only means that he doesn't cherish you enough. Which means he doesn't cherish me. Enough. :(

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Why is it that for every moment of happiness, there will be ten moments of sadness?

.........

When everything's fun and we're joking around, you said your friends say we are compatible but when we quarrel, you said we had too much difference among us and we are not compatible. You have any idea how it hurts. Do you? :(

I don't think I am a demanding girl.

I don't demand you to pay for my purchases. I don't demand you to help me take my bag when we are out but the small things that I demand like, helping me ask the lady over is demanding? Things like accompanying me after work for a short trip around parkway is demanding?

It IS so demanding that you had to play a game with me with forfeit I've to face if I lose and I'm just lucky that I won so that you have no choice but to accompany me to that particular place?

I know you don't like my photoshoots... You don't like me talking that much with photographers either... But what can I do? I'm just trying to earn as much as I can so that I can afford to pay everything myself. Yes, includes my food and transport and everything and I don't even get a single cent from my parents. Not even when this is my first month at work. I ain't born with a silver spoon in my mouth and I doubt my parents have enough money to pay for my university fees too. So why can't you just understand?...

:(

Just because you got parents that can fetch you after work and so forth, you have to panic and rush everyone out of the office so as to cater to your time, knowing fully well that I don't like to be left behind. Which boyfriend will leave their girlfriend without informing them either? Would YOU fancy that?

:(

You said that my inbox contains too much of other guys' sms (mostly photographers to settle time and venue) but.... how long had you sms me those sweet nothings? Think about that yourself. You may think you're the best boyfriend anyone can have but do you really think so?

You opt over playing psp with your friends and totally ignoring me even though I am right in front of you talking to you. You get angry when I tried to distract you out of the game. Sooo.. what am I to you? Nothing less than a game?

Having said that, I totally appreciate the stuffs you did for me - like bringing the umbrella over when I texted you and getting drenched in the storm instead.

I would have been delighted... But not after you left with your friend first cos I said I'll wait for the rain to stop. ~~Can't you just wait with me? What's the rush?~~

Sigh.. you have no idea how I felt....

I felt so alone standing by under the block waiting for the others to come. I didn't get any reply from you and I thought you won't be coming... Not until a kind lady phoned her fellow librarian friend to bring umbrellas for us that you turned up.

:(

And now, you're even getting angry at me for not keeping the laptop into the bag when I didn't know anything about it.

Fine, all's my fault. I am a lousy girlfriend.

Comments: Fuck, another self blaming entry. Double FML.

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You say it best, when you say nothing at all?

Bullshit.

Today you left without a word to say. I feel ultimately demoralised. Even my friends knows that you had left before I did - which is way hours later. You've won. I cannot beat you in being demanding and wanting my own way. I need constant love but I ain"t feeling that from you.

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Wells, they say you will only know good after knowing bad, and appreciate the good. I'm not saying that my ex is bad, but he just doesn't know how the right way to treat a girl as that was both of our first relationship. He didn't tell his parents about me (go to his house still must secretly wtf), and I remember once we quarrelled and I cabbed all the way from my house to his house (costs $14 wtf) and he refused to come down to meet me until like 30 minutes later when I threaten to go up and knock his door. What turf right? At one point of time, I even felt that he was ashamed of me as a girlf. I felt so sad whenever I think about my past as I think every girl deserves to be treated right. Anyways, I didn't break up with him. He did. But for whatever reasons, I think it was a good decision. At least it ended my suffering. But I would never get back together with him ever again.

I don't know if he still reads my blog, but whatever, I guess guys mature later than girls and he was possibly still super immature then. Whatever he does, I hope that the next girl he met, he would treat her super good. :)

For my side, I know I treat him very good already. You can't dispute this cos not alot of gf will be willing to spend like 8-10 hours baking cookies to fill 30cm long container and sticking by him this long (close to 2 yrs?) even though sometimes he treated me like shit. Sometimes, I felt that I was the one giving and giving and he was just at the receiving end. I know, sucks to be me at that point of time.

Which was quite sad, but the past was the past. I can't change the past. And I guessed God's way of repaying me is letting me find Patrik♥ or rather, letting Patrik♥ find me! :D
I sincerely believe that every girl should find someone who will cherish, and pamper her like a lil princess because you deserved to be. ♥

xoxo,
xia0xue

-Sign Off @ 4:12 AM :)

Clocky!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Once upon a time, I found out a clock named clocky through fmylife.com....
Cos this fmylife is really funny!

"My parents just bought me clocky for my birthday. They think it is funny that both of my legs are casted and I couldn't get out of bed even if I wanted to. FML."

So I went to find out what clocky is. AND... I instantly decided that it is going to be my favourite clock in my list now. Clocky is such an adorable name, isn't it? Wait till you found out what it does!

It was voted #1 annoying clock on many sites!!!!111

Because, it is a fucking runaway clock! Fucking awesome or what? You don't just hit the button and go back to sleep. You have to get out of bed to hit the button. Surely you will be awake by then. Lols! Read more below:

"When you hit Clocky’s snooze button, he will roll off of the nightstand, fall to the floor, and run around the room, searching for a place to hide. When the alarm sounds again, you have to get out of bed to find it and turn it off. He finds a new spot everyday, “kind of like a hide-and-seek game”

Here's a video of clocky in action.

I seriously recommend this only for people who have impaired hearing and couldn't get out of bed no matter what. Lols! Have a nice day people. :)
p.s I got one for my dear Patrik. Works fine. Hahahaha.

xoxo,
xia0xue

-Sign Off @ 9:04 AM :)

School = exams again.

Monday, January 11, 2010

I am fucking stressed right now. Cos it's my exams period agains. :(
Every time this happens, I will suffer from a mind block and I can't seem to bring the info in my head. Am I dumb or what. Wtf. *grumbles*

Why is it that other peple have photographic memory and not me? Fuck. I want that too.
Luckily for me, despite this stressful period, I still got something to munch on lor. Else I will super T-T.

Dear prepared all these on seeing how stressed I am. So sweet of him. That's why I am so nice to him also mah! Hahaha.

This has been my favourite love in my secondary school life. Everyday recess die die must get. 70 cents I still remember and only 8 pieces inside. But this one hard cover and got more so more ex! Hahaha.

Come with a love love box. In pink!! Mad chio.

Very very happy about it.

Only left 1/4 of what it contained previously cos I forgot to take picture and ate alot alot alot of it before I remember. LOLS.

Okays, back to studying. Patho is killing me. #%$$^!@!#

xoxo,
xia0xue

-Sign Off @ 7:14 AM :)

Patrik's dear birthday

Friday, January 08, 2010

Okay, this is like backdated super long agooooo! 03.12.2009 was the date.

Silly boy insists that his own birthday is super nice cos it's 123 in certain calenders. But I told me mine is nicer! 06.06!! I'm born on the devil's birthday. But I'm actually an angel in disguise. Really. Hahahaha.

So anyways, he is like so old liao, so no need any special arrangements. Lols!! Just kidding.
Told you I'm an angel. At least to him. I spent enough to buy a gucci wallet. (:

Way before the day, we went to a certain korean bbq restuarant for his birthday treat. I was recommended to this restuarant as my friend was raving to me about the buffet. They serve waygu beef in the buffet okay? No joke.

Waygu beef is known as marble beef and it is like premier beef quality. It leaves a melt in your mouth feeling right after eating it. And we always thought that those people are exaggerating cos normal beef is like, okay nice but not so nice till your expression changes?

And we were proved wrong. It's omfg awesomest experience. I still wanna go back there for another buffet but too bad the buffet menu has been taken off. (Think they experienced losses cos waygu beef is damn ex.)

On the day before his real birthday, he treated his family and me to rivercity restuarant's ala cart buffet.

Silly boy and his bro-in-law in the background. Lols.

Regarding the food, it was not fantastic but there was a wide selection of food available so it's okay. Only thing is that it is quite pricey? $29/head even if you are not a big eater. I feel that it's not very worth it. Should have go to jumbo or no signboard to eat crabs! Cos the bill came to $260. For 8 people.

Sadly, this is the only pic I took. Very hungry so cannot keep snapping pictures. Hahaha!
This is si bao ji! Translated paper cover chicken literally.

Afterwards, went to his house to plan his surprise presents. Silly boy initially only thought I buying the liverpool jersey for him lor!

But actually, I had it all planned out. Days before, I wrapped all his presents and then place it in a christmas stocking since it's so near christmas. Then I hid it and gave him a fake present with a clue to find his real birthday present. :D

I even gave him this dumbo at first lor! To "bluff" him that I'm only buying this for him and even forced him to carry it. Hahahaha.

Finally, with lots and lots of hints given, he managed to find the present!!!!!!!!!111

A very happy Patrik. Of course luh, if I receive so many presents at one go, I will also be very happy~!!!

He received:

A brAun shaver
Philips earpiece
Liverpool jersey
Photoframe of us
And lots and lots of his favourite sweets!!! XD

And even before the clock strike twelve, the kanchiong me brought out the cake for him to blow.

From famous amos! Cos he doesn't like normal cakes. The cheesecake previously wasn't well appreciated from him. *sulks* But it's okay.
So this time, just for his birthday, I bought him a cookie one!

It reads HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY PATRIK LOVE. (: (: (:

And he likes it! ♥ ♥ ♥

Hehe, I love giving. Although at the receiving end also not bad luh. I bet this is like the awesomestestest birthday for him. Cos guys don't really celebrate their birthdays. And I know he will agree too. ♥

xoxo, xia0xue

-Sign Off @ 9:55 AM :)

Typical Singaporeans or...?

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Today, I was in the midst of waiting for my bus to go to my driving center when this woman, in her late 30s, suddenly just collapsed next to me.

I was freaked out, cos it was like the first ever time something like this happened to someone. And she knocked her head on the pillar. Hard. :(

My first response was like, zomg what should I do!? Then it appeared to me that no one was trying to help her!!! After a lag of 2seconds due to my reaction time, I faster walked forward and asked if she's okay.

She did not reply me. But thank god she didn't faint or anything. I think she slipped but then her whole body was on the ground luh. Just imagine. Afterwards, I helped her up and make sure she was properly seated before I sat down again. But it was so fucking scary.

I wonder why no one extended help to her despite her falling so badly. Is like the bus stop is full of people lor! But all they did was stare. wtfomgbbq. Is it like a common trait for typical singaporeans to do that? I am 90% sure if the woman collapsed in other countries, people will rush in to help her lor.

Reminds me of the recent molestation case of the girl at the new year countdown party. Everyone just looked on and even take down the video footage. Yet, no one bothered to help the girl.
Some said that the girl was obviously enjoying the attention and asking for it. But if we (girls) wear short skirts, does that mean that we are asking to be molest?

If you said YES, fuck you seriously. And maybe next time if your daughter gets molested then you will feel different about this issue. Lols. :X
So, do you guys think that Singaporeans are just bo-chuped about this kind of issue? Just curious to know.

Sorry for this very wordy post. Will be coming up with more posts tml. :D

xoxo,
xia0xue

-Sign Off @ 9:42 AM :)